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hi blog and readers , know i've not been blogging for few days and finally , im online .

something happened at home ... im afraid , im facing it . i became more furious , attitude became horrible .

i found out that i am not strong . i am so tired ...

Monday
Josh , Brand & kenneth went to bubble tea shop with me . i guess i frgt the shop's name . thanks josh , blanja me two dollars . to brand & josh . thanks alot , you guys understand i was tired , sad & unhappy .

They accompanied me to bus stop to wait for my bus . saw the guy who went out with us tt tym , caleb . & people change .

Tuesday
Really tired after band , school and stuffs .

Wednesday
Self -Practice with jiahui , ailing .

meet josh & brand after my practice . they waited for me & really , thankyou . went to macdonald to eat , slacked & chatted . i went there to talk to them only because i've no money to buy anything . They ordered and came back . Josh bought me one burger . Brand bought his food and drink . they offered to share with me .

From the bottom of my heart , i thank you guys alot . Especially Josh . i guess you understood what had happened . In the past , all these don't mean anything to me . Now , a simple care from friend meant alot to me . thanks for the burger , the carings to me .


Thursday
Band day . i did not went for band . I was really depressed ...

Friday
I've mood swings for the slightest matter . i dontknow what to do , i felt ... terribly lost .

A great thankyou to my friends tts around me like josh , brand , jiahui , amanda , treasa and others that would care to stop by and talk to me & calming me down about some matters .

I thought i could act as if nothing had happened . Come to school , talk , play , learn & go home . I thought i was strong ... I thought i can be happy by forcing a smile on my face . I thought i can sleep and forget wad had happened . I thought everything was fine .

But the fact was that im sad . I cried .

& it all affects my mood , so please do understand if i give faces

I just know wad i want , to be a successful person .

Nothing will be easy for me . I dont want to run away anymore . i want to face it . high up falling down was pain but i will want to force myself to stand up . No matter if im going to be alone one day , or so ever . I will earn things , get things all by myself .

time to get ready for anything and especially for my future .